Monday, April 26, 2010

surprise surprise

i ate again today.
I was doing so well up until I got home.
Today was my friend's funeral and memorial dinner, so I ate at the dinner as well.
I binged when I got home.
I feel sick and obese, so I'm probably just going to throw up in about 30minutes or so.

My prom is this Saturday, and I won't be skinny like how I pictured myself being by this time.
It's really disappointing.

I need to keep my mind on the prize.
I need to stay focused.

I will do this.

2 comments:

  1. You will do this... we both will... if anything those girls saying shit... just make me never want to eat so that they will believe that I have some kind of ED.... I mean just because I don't starve myself all the time doesnt mean I'm not sick... but any way... I hate to think of you purging... mostly because I hate even the though of vomit... grosses me out. I prefer working out exessively (sorry it's spelled wrong I know). Even though I'm also lazy...

    Love you, Stay strong

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  2. Aweh thank you so much.
    I know exactly what you mean, I don't starve all the time, which obviously makes my fast that much more difficult. But I can do this. I know I can.
    Yeah, I have throwing up oh so much.

    Thanks

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