I want it so bad.

This is really embarrassing I'm 5 feet tall about pushing 135lbs.
I am overweight. Dangerously close to obese.
It's really crazy because people tell me that I look fine or skinny.
I bet its cause they're lying.
Or they say it's all the muscle on me (cause I'm really athletic).

I want to weigh 95lbs so fucking badly.
But its harder than ever for me to do so, since for the last 7months I've been on a vicious cycle of binging and (sometimes) purging.
I hate making myself throw up so fucking badly. I hate it all.

I want to be 95lbs by the end of May/beginning of June.

I just need all of the support I can get,
and focus on the POWER, CONTROL, SELF DISCIPLINE,
clothes, summer and all of that other stuff. . .