FAIL

Well yesterday (DAY5 of fast)
I ate.
I was at school and I felt nauseous as hell and just plain terrible with no energy.
So I had a jolly rancher.
And that did not help.
I felt like shit so I waited. I felt worse.
So I ate a muffin. I felt better.
Then I just kept eating.
I went some insane binging rampage at school.
I am truly ashamed.

TODAY:
I was supposed to continue my fast. FAIL. I ate breakfast.
And the all day binge commenced again.
I feel so fat and disgusting right now.
All day I binged and purged. All fucking day.

So tomorrow.
I WILL BE BACK ON WATER.
I HAVE TO.
I am upset and ashamed.
I feel sick.
I am going to throw up now.

WISH ME LUCK ON RE-STARTING MY FAST AGAIN TOMORROW!

Water Fast: Day 4

Today I didn't even want to get out of bed, not because I was sleepy, but because I was exhausted. Crazy stuff.
My mind was so out of it today.
And I was really stressed due to homework, and yearbook stuff, and I really needed energy but instead I was really jittery.
Usually when I don't eat I eat by the 4th day but NOT TODAY!
So today and for the rest of the time being will be a "Historic Day" for me.
I can't wait until this all becomes easier, and I'm not so tired anymore.

Wish me luck!

Water Fast: Day 2

Today is my second day on the water fast.
Its not too bad. I'm neither hungry or tempted. So that's pretty good news.
It feels like it's been longer than two days though.

The downside to all of this is that I'm pretty tired. And being tired is way bad, since I have a lot of homework to do (and it's all pretty boring), so I'm having trouble staying focused and awake.

I shall be keeping tabs!
Wish me luck for the remaining 38 days of my fast!
:)