well....

(This is what I look like as of lately ^^^^)
I haven't been fasting all week.
And I am OKAY with that.
I've never dealt with loss in my entire life until now, a good friend of all people.
I felt better today. Last day I'm going to eat for a while.
I was only cutting myself some slack because I wasn't sure how or how long I was going to have to cope with this, but I feel better today so I'm sure I won't be feeling so sad anymore.

So I restart my water fast for the millionth time again tomorrow. I can do it if I try, so I guess I should start putting some effort into it.

I ate a lot today and for the last week. I am most definitely ashamed.
And the worst part is that I hardly call that eating.
It was binging and purging. ALL of it.
Mostly binging (my throat can only handle so much vomiting.)

Wish me luck. I really need it.